817 on a sunday morning

blah. im in a baad mood.
no sleep and been pissed for almost a week now. doesnt help much that I am sick, congested and coughing up nothing. my chest hurts, have a hoarse voice, headache, and my allerigies...fuck! im sneezing my head off and look like im constantly high...kinda am tho, ha.
i got a new apartment. that rocks except for the whole allergy thing. and the moving, my body aches :(. im still broke, too. this is annoying. life is starting to piss me off.
not over these tiny things, the tiny things are what i focus on to distract me from every thing else that is really bothering me. thats another reason why ive been so hyper lately. i keep distracting myself. ive barely been home! and i love sitting at home.
the bigger issues are kinda plain as day. my income is supporting FIVE people. im REALLY at the end of my rope on this one. on top of being the only one working, i feel like im the only one taking care of the house or kids. a good example was last night. i cleaned and unpacked until i laid down that night. all while watching the kids. keeping them entertained, avoiding fights and making them come to compromises. after dealing with a disagreement among the kids, i got yelled at for not having called maintanance yet, and the water was still running from where i was in the middle of doing all the dishes! once it was determined the oven wouldnt be fixed, guess who was left to fix every one dinner in the microwave when i was done with the dishes.
i understand he brought a load brought a load after getting the girls yesterday, and he went to the store to get a few items. also hung the hammock. he hooked up his computer. but see, i brought two loads the other day after getting the apartment, bought groceries, and put the kids to bed last night....only to have to get out of bed at 3am because the thumb sucker got into bed and kept me awake. I am NOT okay with sleeping with the kids. I didnt want to use the living room as my bedroom to begin with. I want my own room and NO KIDS IN IT!!!!!!!!! PROBABLY BECAUSE I GET TIRED OF DEALING WITH THEM ALONE ALL DAY AND LATER BEING TOLD I DONT KNOW HOW THEY ACT!!!!!!
Enough is enough. is it so hard to get a job, anywhere at this point, and help me with a little bit around the house and with the kids? a little more affection wouldnt kill anybody either